I know the last entry i logged was from my Oregon trip. I realized that i should be login in about the places that i've been and my experiences associated with them.
So, i'm on a plane back from Atlanta, GA. A team of us from Ignited had to meet our client, GameTap. We flew out on Tuesday morning, and part of our team is flying back tonight, Wednesday.
The client experience was a good one. We met up for drinks with our new RM clients. We went to a bar and had drinks and some munchies. I felt quite uncomfortable with the first time meeting this client. I think since i don't know them very well, i have hesitations on just blurting something out. Alot of this has to do with the comments people have about Amy. Seems like Amy is having some difficult challenges integrating into the culture of the team. That seems to be my fear. I feel like everyone is being judged on things, and people wont clearly come out and say if you are or are not doing your job.
I fear that people are saying that i'm not doing my job. Maybe i need to know what my job is? OR if people find value in what i do. i don't understand what i need to have someone else validated my existence when it comes to work. I want to be a contriubuter vs a body that is just there.
I do believe this team does need some help though. There seems to be some given that i seem to take for granted. Like everything with interactive starts with the users!!!! And what value does it bring to those people. AND who are those people that find what you have of value?
I realized that i don't do well with not knowing all the facts... maybe the fear of looking stupid. I'm not quite sure. I'm sure it's that. I don't want people to think im inatiquate.
Well, this is what i need to do is to do what i can do to help, and then see if that is effective. I can only do so much.
